C: When you fully realize that nothing here has ever eased your hopelessness and despair. How much longer will you search for a cure where none exists?
In desperation you move from one diversionary distraction to the next, each time hoping that the brief flutter of "happiness" will last longer than the transient episodes of the past, only to be disappointed, time and time again. You move from one illusion to the next with the ego informing that there is something better up ahead, just go there and do this, take up this goal, follow this path, learn this skill, complete that task, enjoy this body, obtain this object, engage this thought, adhere to that belief, follow that teacher, etc, etc, etc, ad nauseam. The ego's directions have always been clear: seek, but do NOT find and allow suffering and dissatisfaction to be your guide.
Be wholly certain of this, your disatisfaction is the deciding factor in WHAT you give yourself and shapes and molds the dream to those specifications. It is now time for you to SEE DIFFERENTLY.
M: So I should be satisfied with this living hell that is not my home?
C: Be satisfied in knowing that there is a way home and let illusions be what they will be, because it is your disatisfaction that gives them reality. They cannot affect you when you are CERTAIN of the destination.
There are NO guideposts outside your mind. The "world" cannot save you, but neither can it hurt you. It can do nothing at all and this will be your experience when you are no longer disatisfied with it.
M: I'm sensing the ego will not go quietly.
C: The ego is a mad idea that you are NOT as Created, but instead are a "body" destined to grow weak and feeble, suffer and die. Yet, is this ONLY an idea in YOUR mind and it can be dissolved in the blink of an eye. YOUR mind is more powerful than the universe, because it is from YOUR mind that the universe unfolded. You are NOT a "body," but a mind that Creates like God.
M: The universe seems to control me.
C: It has no such power, but what you give it. You tell yourself that because the world gives you NOT what you want, you must be lonely and afraid and, hence, the world reflects loneliness and fear.
Seek the Peace of God, that requires NO "world" be real. Look IN before you look OUT and give the world God's Truth, not the ego's lies.
M: But what about the needs of the body?
C: Believe you are a body and be mastered by its dictates. Believe you are ONLY a mind and the body MUST conform to the power of that BELIEF, and it is truly powerful indeed. Of all the endlessly cascading problems the ego demands you resolve, this is the ONLY problem that requires resolution, but that the ego seeks to veil through the needs of the body.
At this stage of your learning, there are many needs of the body that cannot be ignored, because to do so would only shock your mind and delay progress. It would be foolish to pretend that what you now believe "real" is NOT and this would only result in confusion.
Take comfort and rest in the FACT that you are exactly where you need be in God's plan for your Awakening.
M: It seems to be taking a long time for this to happen.
C: "Time" is a belief you invented and exists nowhere else but in your thoughts. It was required by the ego to show how you are a victim of time through the illusion of "evolving."
Yet, when you look to the reality you invented, through your alliance with the ego, you clearly note a Great Regression taking place in the "world," and this contradicts your theories of "evolution." The ego is undeniably losing its grip on your mind as you witness to the insanity it shows you and loudly proclaims your "truth."
Hence, time is being used appropriately to demonstrate that the ego is insane and YOU are NOT, simply because you are witness to hell and no longer wish to "see" it. The Great Regression of the ego makes you master of all you see, because you see it to be FREE.