Friday, February 22, 2013

The Dreamer is Separate from the Dream

M: It seems I get no break from repetitive problems.

C: Nor will you, as long as you look to parts of the dream for answers. Yet, you will continue to choose from what is offered until “choice” no longer matters. Then you will lay down your arms. For in a dream each choice requires defending its “reason.” Truth requires NO defense, because it transcends all reason. Until you understand this, you will defend your choices AS true and, one after another, they will crumble from the weight of their own emptiness.

M: So what then? I won’t make choices anymore?

C: Choices will be made, but “you” will NOT make them. They will unfold effortlessly from a “place” in you that has NO need to judge parts of the dream, KNOWING that none of it is true. You dream of those who have been to this “place,” if only briefly, and return to tell about it. You have given them the words to describe it, because you too believe it MUST exist. But you have allowed their descriptions to contradict and so, you are filled with doubt, mistrust and fear. But even in your doubt, you sense the truth that YOU do not belong here and from that one thought you have traveled very far indeed.

Dissolve the conditions that obstruct its coming. Otherwise, you will only become lost in the belief you have found a place that the dream describes, forgetting that ALL descriptions are your invention. As the world you see recedes from view, a new sight will fill your vision and you will SEE the way home. Your world will not disappear, but you will see it as never before. You need do nothing now, but allow it.

M: How do I allow it?

C: By understanding that you cannot obstruct it in any way. You are beginning to understand that there is no need to defend your choices.

M: But this means not standing up for what I value. So I should value nothing? This would make me a mindless robot!

C: You value only what the dream has taught, denying that you demand it FROM the dream and day by day your disillusionment is growing more apparent, but you believe there is no other choice. Your “life” has happened TO you. You resist recognizing that those controlled by a dream have NO control.

Surrender to the inescapable fact of dreaming and locate the dreamer.

M: But this would only be allowing myself to be controlled by the dream.

C: In the KNOWLEDGE that it is a dream, it can have NO control whatsoever. Make no mistake, this is all that need be known and, until this is KNOWN there can be no peace, How can a victim of NOTHING be at peace until realizing that which disturbs his peace is simply not there?

M: But this reality draws me in constantly. I cannot think along these lines when so many tasks need to be performed, so many things must be attended to.

C: To be victim to an imaginary world, truth must be absent from that world. But note how all your “trials and tribulations” must always bring you back to me. This means that there is some part of you that knows what is true and what is NOT. Therefore, do not look upon them as obstacles, but as reminders of what you really want.

M: If it’s my dream, then why have I no control over it?

C: See it as yours and it will unfold in any direction you choose. You are cause and not effect. Find the dreamer and know this is true.

M: That I cause this to myself is the hardest thing to accept. But then, if that is the truth, there is no need for me to get upset at what I experience. But why can’t I know the purpose behind what I dream?

C: Think of the dreams you experience now when you lie down to sleep. What purpose do they provide but symbolic representations of another world you believe is real, but only while sleeping. What happens in your nighttime dreams makes no difference to the world you know as real and believe you will experience upon awakening. The best you can ever do is attempt to define the symbols but their purpose will allude you because they have none.

You have spent a “lifetime” trying to make meaningful that which is only symbolic. The dream has NO purpose, except to teach you that you wish to wake.

M: So my current struggle is to teach me that I exist in a dream?

C: Have you not been here before?

M: Many times.

C: And each time your response is the same. Although specific variables seem different, your state of mind does not change and your fear will maintain this repetition invariably. However, you cannot change these conditions yourself. Only the dreamer can alter this pattern completely and for all eternity.

That which fears the dream cannot be the dreamer, but simply another part of the dream.

M: So I should just let go all fear?

C: Again, you cannot be free of fear, because you are a product of the dream and all your actions demonstrate that you are an effect and NOT cause. Find the dreamer and find the cause.

M: So I should just act as if the dream does not affect me?

C: Behind the mask the actor knows that the part he plays is not true. But he plays it well, knowing that he MUST eventually return to the state of mind that he KNOWS is natural to him. You do recognize the parts you play are not natural to you, but you still continue to believe that you have NO choice but to maintain what is unnatural. This demonstrates you know nothing but the parts you play and believe you have NO natural state for which to return. How could fear NOT enter into such a distorted belief system?

The dreamer has not left his natural state, but only dreams he is something else. Your forgetfulness is all we need remedy, because you do have a natural state and this was God’s gift to you.

M: How will locating the dreamer show me my natural state?

C: Locating the dreamer only allows you to KNOW the dream and to change it as a means to make ready what only God can reveal. God’s Revelation is not part of my teaching, but Salvation from the dream is why you have called on me and your Salvation involves nothing more than the end of all fear. When all fear has left you, you will be in an automatic state of readiness for Revelation. You must learn that you are not the dream, but the dreamer. Fear cannot be abolished IN a dream until the dreamer is found OUTSIDE the dream.

M: How will I know when I have found the dreamer?

C: There will be NO doubt. It is impossible to explain the unlimited to a mind limited to mistaking illusion for reality. There are those whom you know of who have found the dreamer, if for only a moment, and have expressed awe and wonder of that moment. Yet, they return to the expectations of your dream and, hence, have not awakened to their natural state. The only difference in this case is that the dream is yours and they only serve to prove this to you. This insures the certainty that YOU will awaken, because there is no one else.

M: The ego will never allow me to experience this.

C: Just as everything in its world was made to be destroyed, so too must it suffer that same fate. Yet, because you believe it is “you,” you are fooled into believing that fate awaits you and everything you experience as an ego must conform to that one and only message. What experience have you ever encountered that does not inform of death in some way? What experience lives on exactly as it was born and yet never dies?

Although the ego has attempted to make a mockery of ME, by distorting every message I have offered, it cannot completely deny my voice and the fact that your desire to listen grows with intensity. Such is the tension you now feel on a daily basis for as I come closer, it increases its attacks on you. It demands you look outward for relief from inner suffering. But you are pulling away in the gradual realization that the ego offers nothing that would sustain your joy, but gives only death.

Your desire to experience the world as an ego is receding, while the desire to experience God’s will intensifies. It is inevitable that one day you will experience this and only this. Have faith that this is true and recognize you are most assuredly on that path because you are not an ego. You are not a defeated self, roaming aimlessly in a barren desert of fear.

For now, this seems to come in tiny offerings, with only a return to tension and disappointment. But recognize in your pain is the key to salvation as it indicates your approach to freedom. Recognize it as a sign that we are joining as ONE.

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Suffering For My Love

M: So in this dream I give myself every experience?

C: Do you not sense a repetition to your suffering? Yet, surprisingly, you believe there is safety in repetition and so your dreams are repeat performances born of fear. Repetition born of fear can offer NO safety from the chaotic storms that seem to toss you about. It is only your fear that keeps you bound to the same chaotic patterns of safety that only replicates the fear from which the chaos originates.

Look to your relationships and recognize the same patterns repeated incessantly.  You carry past fears into your future, all the while demanding to experience "happiness." Fear clings to the past to give you a future you claim to NOT want, but receive as you ask. Obviously, this makes NO sense.

M: Death changes everything.

C: This would be true if only you had something for which to compare. But as of yet, death is what you expect and because of that LIFE eludes you. You wish to believe consciousness is evolving, but how can that which believes it dies possibly evolve? Rather, it merely repeats what it "remembers." No matter what it claims as "new," the end is always the same. Such is the insanity you profess as "truth."

A billion FORMS of death hide you from LIFE. You believe breathing proves you live. You have yet to understand that each breathe you take merely proves that you are dead, because CREATION has no such limits. However, this is beyond what I teach, and much more than you are capable of understanding. Make no mistake, your last breathe will not be in fear but indescribable joy. The simple fact, which you incessantly seek to compromise, is that as long as the mind is victim to the body, there can be NO joy because you are NOT free. However, with my help you can come very close after which, only God can provide.

M: Okay, so it’s a dream. But the dream always seems against me. Why is that?

C: You do not believe you are dreaming and so, you do not TRUST what you experience, even though what you experience is undeniably a product of your own MIND. To know you are dreaming is to TRUST what the dream provides. The dream is yours and, if dreams are OF the mind, why would you fear your own mind?

M: I don’t particularly like parts of this dream. Are you going to tell me that I have to like it to awaken?

C: Learn to TRUST what you make “real.” Why seek for a glorious future in a dream of hell? You hope heaven may one day be true, but you believe hell is an undeniable fact. In a dream, heaven is a construct no different from hell and the choice is yours.

M: You can’t possibly make me believe that hell is what I want. That this is what I ask for?

C: You believe you are expert at determining what you do NOT want, but have little idea as to what you DO want. The moment you think you have FOUND what you seek, doubt enters proving it is NOT for you. Nothing has ever sustained you for very long and consistent reliance on seeking what cannot be found in your world has preordained that nothing ever will. In a dream, pleasure is eventually accompanied by pain, simply because nothing lasts.

You do not trust others, your “self” or what that “self” wants and makes real by wanting.

You have little choice but to trust in something NOT of “you.” This seems to be the most difficult choice you MUST make and one that you are avoiding at all costs, because it is the ONLY choice you need EVER make again. You are fast approaching that decision and this seems to increase discomfort.

But can you not see the experiences you have allowed your “self” have only brought you closer to the choice you are certain to make? Can you not see that you do this to yourself and can you not see the reason why? Do not lament your past. It has only ever had one purpose.

M: Are you saying that I ask for this suffering to force myself to awaken?

C: Trust the purpose of what you make “real,” because everything has a purpose and dreaming can have only one purpose. You may determine that you do NOT want what you experience, but clearly, the purpose of a dream is to awaken and everything must conform to that purpose alone. In a dream, the purpose of what is NOT “real” is to show you what IS. Nothing in a dream is real.

M: So I’m giving myself suffering on purpose?

C: Trust in the means to an end. Realize the purpose of your suffering and suffer NO more.

M: But you said I should not trust in myself.

C: Do not trust that which is a construct of dreaming. Trust only in that which desires to awake from the dream of itself.

M: How can I tell the difference?

C: That which desires to awake, trusts the dream to teach it and does not suffer through what is symbolized, because symbols are NOT real. Your dream has this purpose. Trust in that purpose and see that purpose IN the dream.

M: So I should love my suffering? I should seek more suffering then?

C: You demand I suffered as a martyr and, although I could not give you the impossible, nevertheless, you worship me in that image still. But only in a dream could you see me, not as loving my suffering as means to an end, but suffering through pain and privation in my love for you.

This is completely absurd and can only be found in a dream in which absurdity is experienced as “reality.” For when I came to love my suffering, I suffered NO more, in the realization that suffering was impossible in a dream.

This is a fundamental FACT of every dream and clearly demonstrates WHO is dreaming.

Monday, December 31, 2012

It’s Not The World You Seek To Escape

M: I can’t seem to get away from this inner tension. As if something is wrong, but I don’t know what and it seems to eat at me.

C: Correcting what seem like isolated problems is fruitless and you will inevitably get lost down a labyrinth of useless paths that only lead into one another. There is only one solution to dreaming and that is to awake. But first you must recognize that YOU are dreaming.

A separate and isolated “me” expects separate and isolated problems. Unfortunately, the desire to experience “me” requires all other experiences remain apart from that meaningless delusion, else it cannot stand and you would not recognize your separate “self” as you believe it must be. Yet, to join completely with any single experience is to bring the whole of Heaven rushing in to fill your mind. There is NOT a “self’ in this universe that could withstand such TRUTH and still believe itself continuing to “exist” as it does. This is what you await, simply because you do NOT like how you exist and I teach that you do NOT.

M: You’re telling me to get rid of my “self”?

C: What is its purpose? Do you yet know? What need do you have of it? Was it constructed merely to pass the time until time is no more? You cannot “rid” yourself of what has no basis in truth, simply because there is nothing there to expel. You can only see that it has NO basis, no reason for being, and adjust accordingly. This is what I teach.

Pay no heed to what it “feels,” because it is NOT you, but a dream of you. It will force its thoughts upon you, but do not accept them, for they are not yours and you do not want them. What need is there in listening to anything that demands you suffer from a lack of anything or that you are destined to remain isolated, afraid and utterly alone?

Laughter is a more appropriate response to delusional thought, because it demonstrates that you have found the dreamer and are no longer victim to dreaming. In that recognition you cannot but be overcome with laughter and Heaven will join in that infinite chorus.

God has filled your mind with all that is needed. You need be conscious of nothing else, because there is NOTHING else.

M: It helps me negotiate the world and other people in the world.

C: It teaches you to fear “the world and other people in the world,” because it believes you are only an effect and NOT cause. Effects must always be victim to causes. A part of your mind believes it has usurped ownership of the whole. Hence, it can only be an effect and your allegiance to this effect has made you victim to causes outside your control. Rent asunder this tenuous allegiance, for it is based solely and entirely on a lie.

Examine your “existence” and you will see it is defined by ongoing attempts to escape part of your mind, but it is that part that directs all attempts at escape. Not one experience it has allowed has given you the slightest taste of consistent joy or even the remotest semblance of enduring PEACE. Because of this, you do not love your thoughts and thus, invent new “ideas” as a means of pacifying what preceded and when those experiences fade, as they always do, you again become “bored” with the mind and quickly seek new diversions to escape what was relied on previously but now, only disappoints. Nevertheless, you consider the maintenance of insanity a constructive use of “thought.”

It is not the world you wish to escape. It is the mind that is not your home, because you have made it uninhabitable by joining with that which has NO purpose. Your hallucinations do not sustain you and only cause further confusion as each “thought” builds upon the hypocrisy of the previous, so as to contradict the next. You feel compelled to employ the mind in ways to hide from a TRUTH that only the WHOLE mind can show you, because IT knows nothing of parts. It should be obvious by now, there is NO truth in a “reality” only one part of your mind experiences, but you insist that this is ALL that you “see.”

Your mind is the only part of Creation that even dreaming cannot deny for long. Your mind IS the whole of Creation because it is the HOME of God. You cannot escape it, because it is what YOU are. You can be nothing more or less than what you ARE.

M: How can I not think of my “self”?

C: You have yet to think of yourself. Your entire life has been a constant struggle to avoid such an “idea” due to the fear it would provoke if TRUTH were known. You merely juggle concepts from moment to moment in an attempt to keep the imaginary edifice from crumbling to dust.

Knowledge of your CREATION is the most powerful thinking you could ever encounter and thoughts OF the world have NO power to provide you with even the barest idea of that eternity. The part of you that exists through delusion, seeks to avoid that IDEA at all costs, because it would literally spell its doom. You have NO idea of who or what “you” are and, until recently, you have had no intention of learning, except from the part that does not KNOW.

When you are ready I will teach you and you will understand that I AM.

M: I’m ready now.

C: Indeed, you have exhausted yourself once again. Everyone arrives at this place and most arrive many times but, like you, only turn back to start the lonely journey once again. A dream is home to a multitude of diverse pathways, all leading nowhere.

However, some do finally recognize that, after many arduous years of preparation, what came before no longer works. They recognize there is another way and patiently wait to learn it. They are unconcerned with how long the wait, because they realize there is NO choice but to wait, as the knowledge they wish to receive is CERTAIN to be received. Many have waited years in the realization that not to wait is but to repeat what came before and follow the same worn out paths. But the answer they seek always comes.

If you continue choosing not to wait, then you rely on a “self” made from the past that must return to previous diversions and suffer through the same disappointments as you have done countless times before. Wait and let the truth be made available, but wait in the faith that its availability is CERTAIN.

M: So I should just think good thoughts and have better beliefs?

C: Not one idea you now “think” will show you the way home. However, contrary to the thoughts you idolize, and that consistently confuse you, you have had brief moments of recognition beyond the rules of dreaming. You are beginning NOT to care and, although this frightens you immensely, it is an unavoidable first step, because it will eventually give you the patience to wait for what is certain to come. Simply allow your fear to be replaced by certainty.

You cannot wake from a dream that you “care” to wake from when you have yet to see it AS a dream. This only supports your finding a path from what the dream provides and it is impossible for the dream to provide anything that negates dreaming. There is nothing in your “world” that can help you. Hence, no such choice need be made. To give up the “cares” of this world seems impossible to the dreamer who knows NOT that he dreams, because he continues to judge the parts while denying the whole. Hence, he can make NO such choice on his own, but must follow the guidance of one who knows it is only a dream. Awakening is of God, but first you must LEARN you are sleeping and this is what you have called on me to teach.

Trust now that everything you do IN your “world” proves that you are asleep. Each moment of ephemeral relief that some problem has been solved only maintains the dream. Each appearance that you choose as means to build on your happiness, each relationship coveted to extract "self" pleasure, only condemns you to a hell of your own making.

M: Why does this have to be so hard?

C: Can it be “hard” to know that nothing need be done? You know NOT what you do has been my only message. What difficulty lies in doing nothing and letting all be done for you? Clear understanding that nothing need be done, does not prescribe inactivity, but demonstrates that all activities are equal. If it is ALL a dream, what parts hold greater or less significance? In a dream, can murder be of more significance than a skinned knee? Is comforting a frightened child less a task than feeding a country of starving children?

The dreamer imagines levels and degrees and the value he places upon that order regulates and maintains the dream. However, every dreamer must awake and, although that is certain, it is not under his control. A dream cannot wake from itself. Yet, a dreamer can KNOW it is a dream and that knowledge radically alters the dream, because nothing it shows you can affect you any longer. A world without effects cannot be feared and when fear no longer exists to affect him, the part of the mind made entirely from fear dissolves into the whole from whence it was conjured up and the experience of wholeness will fulfill you. You were created whole and upon awakening you will return to what was never left.

M: What will believing it’s a dream do? I’ll still need to negotiate it and get things done. There will still be problems to solve.

C: Indeed, you have always experienced strain in your engagement with the world.

As you attempt to have faith in what I teach, the world teaches a different lesson, completely opposite in all ways. You have learned its lessons well. But what it teaches has not sustained you. Why else would you call on me and, make no mistake, I do not come unless called upon. There has always been a part of you that knows and that is where I AM.

Faith leads to belief and belief becomes KNOWLEDGE and knowledge is CERTAIN. Your understanding is growing, but your lack of faith impedes progress and causes unnecessary delays.

Nevertheless, TRUTH can only be inevitable because of its certainty.
The one purpose of your dream is to find the dreamer. To see the dreamer you must have faith that it is only a dream. I will show you the dreamer, but you must have the faith required to SEE.

Allow this to be a year of CERTAINTY.

Friday, December 7, 2012

You are First Cause

M: Why is it so hard to live what you teach?

C: You have yet to “live” and what I teach aims toward that purpose.

M: So if I’m not now “living” what is it that I now experience?

C: A dream of nothing.

M: This is the second time you have referred to my experiences as “nothing.” I certainly believe that I have experiences that relate to something. They feel real to me.

C: You may choose to make “something” out of nothing, and this seems to be the case. However, what is becoming clear is that the experiences you refer to as “real” have always held an element of the imaginary for you. You have often felt as if you do NOT belong, as if you are not "here." This is because they are experiences of nothing that you have made into something. But this "something" has failed to fulfill you and, hence, you continually make more, in the belief that this cannot be all there is.

Time does NOT allow for experiences to be “real" as Creation is REAL. What comes from Creation is NOT limited by your expectations in “time” and therefore, cannot be "real" in the sense you define it. However, what you experience in "time" and demand as real, is a product of you and nothing else.

M: What about the love I feel for my children. Is that nothing?

C: It is "something" to you. With every concept of love that you invest in as “real,” there is also an experience of lack, that the experience could be much more than it is and, because this is what you believe, this is what you experience, a desire for more.

Every experience you encounter is always less than what it could be and there is always an underlying sense of lack and inadequacy. As long as you believe you are IN a world, your experiences will lack what the world lacks because the world has taught you what, and how, to experience nothing. You do believe that, although the world reflects your concepts of love, more is needed because love is always lacking. Every experience you believe "real" is never complete and is an experience that realizes a lack that is always seeking completion and, therefore, never fulfills.

There is a First Cause that teaches that IF any experience has within it a belief of incompletion, or a lack, and could in some way be greater or higher or more than what the experience allows, then that experience is of nothing. This is because the experience of Truth is complete and has no lack or need.

In a dream of lack, you are First Cause and you teach yourself.

This First Cause reflects Truth as first and only. In that ONE experience, no other need follow because the First is the beginning and the end, since what God makes First can have no other. To experience a First Cause means that no system of measurement need apply, as Truth encompasses all measures and therefore, cannot be measured in any way. To measure Truth is to believe there are levels and degrees to what is Created as ONE. Levels and degrees are relative to your mind, but they are not Truth, but merely reflect your desire to make "truth" conform to what you want.

I believe you will agree that every experience you seem to encounter is never an experience of the fullness that incorporates a union of every experience you have and could ever experience. Every experience you believe as “real,” seems to lack or fail to fulfill COMPLETELY.

This is a Test of Nothing and if there is something more that can be added, then clearly it is NOT Truth and therefore, it must be NOTHING. This is because what is NOT truth can BE nothing, since only Truth can ever BE.

M: It does seem that every experience I encounter has an aspect of it that demonstrates that it can be more than it is in that moment. Does this mean it should be discounted and ignored?

C: Once again, I teach that no experience be discounted, since why would you allow for experience that has no purpose. However, contrary to this question, “discounting” is exactly what you do, in the belief that your experience of a "world" is never enough and this is because the experience of “you” is always lacking if you are IN the world.

I guide you to an experience as FIRST CAUSE and in that, all is Truth and the world must conform. How could it NOT?

Through this experience, nothing more need be added since nothing more can be added to what is complete by all measures and is thus, immeasurable. If nothing more can be added in the moment, then clearly you are First Cause and the effect is of completion. An experience of "lack" denies the moment and instead worships the past. In the past there can never be a FIRST CAUSE, because there is always what came before and this must negate what is NOW and forever.

The love that you deeply long to experience is the love that has no "past" and therefore, need not change through a future. The love that you wish to experience is First Cause and always complete in that nothing is before or after, above or below, more or less than what is infinitely immeasurable. This love is not conditioned on “time” and is NOW and always.

M: These concepts you teach are beyond my ability to comprehend. So if I should not discount the love I now experience, what do I do with the experience I have?

C: Nothing need be done and in that understanding is an experience of completion and an experience that need seek out nothing more to be complete. This is the total joy that experiences the need for nothing and is not distracted by lack, or less than, because it is all of everything that could BE and IS. Refuse to deny that YOU are that experience and every experience you manufacture seeks that conclusion.

Love always and love completely, but do NOT pretend that what is NOT infinite and complete is in some way REAL. Realize that the love that the world has taught you, you do not want. When you no longer allow your experiences to teach you, you will allow the Truth to teach what you do want to experience.

You believe I speak in riddles, but the concepts that compose your beliefs are much more complex and confusing. I only speak to what you are and that part of YOU does listen.