Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Holiday Festivities

J: Why do you feel discomfort?

M: Why? Well, I have no interest in this holiday socializing.

J: Then what is your interest?

M: I don’t know. Anything but this, I suppose. Obviously, I’ve certainly participated in holiday revelry in the past and I’m no stranger to social activities. However, since talking with you I have found little satisfaction with past activities.

J: Yes, and to some degree you feel that my message is at fault and that I am cause of your dissatisfaction. This reveals your tendency to seek for blame and I assure you that what the ego seeks, YOU will find, as that fulfills its purpose. If you look closely you will see that the purpose is to absolve YOU of all guilt while at the same time requiring YOU remain guilty. This premise for "living" is clearly insane, yet you continue to "live" by it.

An ego without a purpose cannot continue to function adequately and YOU do desire adequate functioning. In your chaotic, relative world, you have determined that adequate functioning is the best you can hope for and this you have defined as in your "best interests."

M: Ok, so what would you have me do in this situation?

J: You need do nothing. However, you have heard me state this quite frequently and, although you are listening, you have determined that this is inadequate to your best interests. Indeed, in the current situation you believe that you are attempting to “do nothing.” However, I notice that in this situation you are actually doing very much against your own best interests by not attending to OUR purpose

M: How can that be? I’m sitting here doing nothing. I have not actively engaged in anything with anyone.

J: Although you feel that you are not “actively engaged,” the judging properties of your mind are fully engaged in your world. If you could measure the degree of DOING you are engaged with in order to actualize this, as you say, “sitting here doing nothing,” you would be surprised at how much you are actually “doing” in your present resistance to "parts" of your world. Notice that, to your mind, DOING involves bodily manipulations and spatial changes that are actually a misinterpretation of the concept “do nothing.”

M: You’re saying that my failure to engage in the social activities is resulting in actually my “doing” something? How can that be? I’m not really acting in any way with external events.

J: Contrary to your present thinking, there is nothing “external.” Therefore, the mind’s engagement for, or against, what you believe as external to you, is active negotiation with delusional thought.

Of course, this makes no sense, for how could you negotiate with what is not real. Nevertheless, this is what is occurring by your own choice and you do very much believe in your choices.

Nevertheless, I have no investment in your choices and do not interpret them as real and therefore, since I am aware of truth, I can aid you in negotiating with what is not true.

Unfortunately, you have NOT considered OUR purpose, only YOUR purpose in your current decision. This is based on a previous decision as to what is “real” and whether engagement was worthy or unworthy to you in the past. Either way, you will remain dissatisfied and you always have.

M: Then what does this “do nothing” mean in relation to what is happening right now.

J: You have no idea what is happening right “now” and if you really adhered to "doing nothing" you just might achieve greater insight. Nevertheless, you have always chosen to "do something,” whether it is resistance or engagement, or any number of active negotiations completely unnatural to you. To your mind, there must be a purpose. In doing nothing, you would arrive at OUR purpose, which is always and only, available to you NOW.

Nevertheless, in this moment you do not avail yourself of NOW, and thus, continue to base your decision, as to your current purpose, on the past. All your purposes are based on this bundle of misinterpretations of the “previous” and the “before” and other strange ideas of what once worked for you. You actually worship past decisions and therefore, you worship your "self" and continue to perpetuate that as the final arbiter of all that is "known." I teach that you “know” nothing as long as you continue to base decisions on your "self."

M: So in my attempt to do nothing I’m actually doing something since all “doing” as you teach is of the mind. Thus, you teach that I must think with you. But what would your thinking be in this very moment, since clearly, as you point out, I’m not thinking with you?

J: The only thoughts that are of benefit to you in the moment is that you have no benefit to be attained in the moment. You have no idea of your best interests and you know not what should be “done.”

Nothing that you have ever “thought” and nothing you could ever “think” can benefit you in any way. You have no plans and need not consider purposes, since you know of none that has ever aided in alleviating your suffering or the suffering of the world you perceive as “out there.”

You need make no decisions and thus, can easily free your mind of all judgment as to what should occur. When nothing need occur, all will be available to the mind that NEEDS nothing since nothing is lacking. To this mind, nothing NEED be done.

M: This still does not help me in this moment or at this time. I’m here in this place and occurrences will impinge upon me and I will be forced in some way to respond or to act. So how will I experience myself when forced to act?

J: Nothing can be forced upon you without your decision that it be so. The problem you seek to answer is why you provide yourself with experiences against your liking. Yet, as I have previously stated, you have no idea of your best interests, so how would you assess what is to your liking? What you give yourself merely reflects what you believe should be experienced and this changes from moment to moment.

Therefore, it is easy to understand the opposing impressions, which seem to be your experience. In your world, everything must have an opposite for you to experience your “self” since the self demands opposition to accentuate itself as separate from others, the world and God.

You consistently resist a convergence of opposites and never the two shall meet as ONE. As such, you delude yourself into a belief that happiness is your purpose. But, how can this be when happiness means simply no conflict and thus, no opposition. I would suggest you redefine your happiness as “peace,” since this is essentially means the end of all opposition. Perfect peace is of God and this, and not happiness, is OUR goal.

Therefore, in your present circumstances, you should no longer seek for "happiness" since all your concepts of happiness are muddled, confused and chiefly based on your odd and conflicting sense of being a separate “self.”

Yet in seeking peace, you DO have a conceptual understanding of the experience of peace, although in the past you minimized this as an aspect of inadequate functioning and thus pressed ever onward in “pursuit of happiness.”

In every situation you find yourself ask in the moment of experience, is peace present. If not then clearly, your ego goals of “happiness” have infringed on peace and thus, we are NOT working together. I do not teach happiness, only peace. “Happiness” has always been your decision and thus your delusion. Peace is the only rational goal of a mind in conflict in which opposites are perceived as that which holds the world together, yet, in "reality," only serves to keep the world apart.

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Choosing Teachers

M: You seem to say that I lack nothing, but clearly that is not my experience.

J: What could you lack?

M: I lack happiness of any permanence or depth.

J: How do you "measure" this experience of lack, since in a world of "degrees" you do tend to rely on measuring your "reality" in determining truth?

M: The point is that I do not experience it. In fact, since I have been involved in these "talks," I sense it less only because you teach that what I attached to in the past is fleeting and insubstantial. Those things that I once believed brought happiness are illusory and only bring moments of pleasure with no lasting presence in my life. I am beginning to see this more clearly and it is not a pleasant experience.

J: You state that your knowledge of lack is from experience. How would you define that “experience”?

M: I would define the experience of lacking happiness by its intermittent absence.

J: I teach that you lack nothing and, if what I teach is true, how could happiness be absent at any "time"?

In disbelief you reject what I teach and therefore, you will experience absence. Yet, you cannot experience a “void” and so you must fill the emptiness with what you believe to be true, which, as you are beginning to realize, is contrary to what I teach. However, this brings you full circle since what you believe is cause for happiness has never sustained you and is the reason you have asked for my teaching.

If you call on me but continue to maintain and adhere to your own beliefs as to what you “need,” then you acquire no value from what you have called on me to provide. This makes no sense, although history attests to your repetitive attachment to nonsense.

M: I agree it makes no sense and I see how my continued reliance on myself fails me consistently. Yet, I don’t understand how I can have complete reliance on you and still function in the world, or in what you teach is “delusion.”

J: There will come a time when you will facilitate a comprehensive exchange of your beliefs for what I teach. Until such time, you will continue to pick and choose according to what your “ego” can accommodate and thus "intermittent absence" is what you will experience. This has been the pattern of your “life” for, as I have previously stated, I have been with you always. Choosing comfort above truth only results in continued discomfort since you clearly sense that your choices have not sustained you. Essentially, your discomfort is related to your skewed interpretation that, in some way, I ask for "sacrifice."

Nevertheless, recently you have become cognizant of a “me” as separate from that which is “you.” This has resulted in much confusion as you attempt to differentiate between what “I” teach, which emphasizes your happiness, as opposed to what “you” have taught yourself, which you actually believe is your only hope of happiness - but have yet to experience. The fact that your happiness is elusive and impermanent is a reflection of a poor teacher. Thus, in sacrificing your learning for what I teach you can only gain, not lack. This negates your concept of "sacrifice."

You must have faith that I cannot fail you and this opposes your belief that you have failed yourself and you do believe that on many levels you have failed yourself. This is referred to in psychology as “transference.” You seem to mistake “me” and my belief that you are complete and joyous, for “you” and your belief that you are incomplete and suffer. Making this misinterpretation results in your having as little faith in me, as you have always had in your “self.”

Make no mistake, anytime you experience joy, not conditioned on any person, situation or event external to you, you have chosen me as your teacher.

The only effective method of breaking through the stalemate of transference is to identify it, thereby minimizing its power to obstruct communication. This allows faith to grow in our exchange and in that faith, your learning is facilitated. For a time I must be separate from you, otherwise you would refuse to learn the truth simply because you would attribute the curriculum to your “self.”

Our separation was blatantly apparent in your worship of me as a body. You are now ready for a more “psychological” presentation of my teaching. However, separation continues to be necessary even though unification is the result.

Understand that for now you MUST differentiate between a “me” and a “you” and thereby gain in faith through the correct choice. Only through this tiny adjustment in perspective, will we eventually join as One, in which time is the only absence you will experience.

Have faith that your exchanging the unreliability of your “self,” for the complete reliance on me, will lead you through the darkness of your present confusion.

M: But how do I know if I am relying on you and not myself since I have had problems in this differentiating.

J: This statement appears to contradict what is occurring in this very moment.

M: Yes, but the writing of this requires greater attention to you, then what is required in everyday functioning. Plus, we can’t forget that I write these talks with the goal of posting for all to see.

J: Essentially you are stating that you have decided that there are moments in time when our communication is easier to facilitate then at other times. But notice that the key word is “decided.” There is not one moment in time that I am not with you. The decision as to when you will listen and, thereby allow our interaction, is yours only because you have demanded that this choice be available to you.

This simply attests to the fact that you believe that there are times when I can be helpful to you and times when I cannot. This is indicative of your belief that there are times when Truth is valid and times when it is not. This makes no sense since Truth must be True in all situations and at all times. It only makes sense in your "reality" where truth is relative to each situation and each time. Therefore, your reality is not TRUE. If your reality is false, what could you lose in learning that there is a different “reality” and thus a different way of SEEING? This is what I teach.

However, if what I teach is false, then you are no better off then before. You can then console yourself, as is your common practice, that something else must exist "outside" to give you joy and simply resume your search in a world where what you seek will never be found.

But if what I teach is true then you are saved from the false forever.

The choice is yours and always will be. You can choose between hell or heaven and the fact that you now perceive a little of both, attests to your vacillation. I ask that you simply choose differently and I teach you how.