Your “preferences” determine your experience and neither God, nor your world, interferes in this process of cause and effect. However, interference is your preference, due to the misattribution of God and the world as cause of your suffering. Therefore, your preferences are profoundly important to you, and from them you will experience the hell of your choosing.
M: I feel like some kind of shift in perception has occurred, but I can’t define what or why.
J: Many have experienced such a “shift,” although without guidance, interpretation is usually inadequate and a return to fear always results in quickly resuming the search for what YOU value in a world that taught you WHAT to value.
Now you are beginning to question the values that have determined who and what you are. Subsequently, you are also beginning to recognize that there is another way to SEE the world. But, you must recognize that this is only possible because you have chosen to allow my guidance, because, of yourself, you know NOT what you DO.
M: I feel slightly detached from the world, although I continue to participate in all the activities and tasks of daily living just like before. I can’t quite put my finger on what changed, but even though it is slight and barely perceptible, I do sense something.
J: A drop in baseline fear will always result in changed perception. However, contrary to “detached,” I would suggest that you interpret this as a greater engagement with your world, since only those free of fear can fully engage through Vision. Vision engages the world from an experience of deep peace and because this is within, it translates effortlessly to perception and literally alters the world you SEE. Nevertheless, I would suggest you leave the function of interpretation to me, as you are likely to misinterpret what is incomprehensible to an ego that interprets based on what IT believes you need.
What you are detaching from is fear since fear is your only attachment. In fact, fear is specifically defined by “attachment.”
M: But will this last?
J: As I have taught, your course is certain. Rest assured that what you have chosen to SEE differently, can never be seen the same again. Nevertheless, changed perception can never “last,” because if based on correct interpretation it can only increase, but the rate of increase is dependent on how much you desire to SEE the world without fear. You will progress at the pace you choose, since all that is needed is one solitary moment completely without fear for the world to be transformed. Nothing more than that is needed and nothing more than that will save the world.
M: I still experience a struggle, particularly when I must do things that I don’t want to do.
J: This is only because you believe YOU know what must be done and as I teach, there is nothing you “know” that has ever helped you except the fact that you know correct interpretation is needed. I teach that nothing NEED be done, but you doubt this and thus continue to expect that what you “do” will somehow, someday save you.
Make no mistake in that your “pursuit of happiness” is nothing more than an expectation that some aspect of the world, some value the world holds as "true," will provide you salvation. Obviously, attempting to extract salvation from what does NOT contain any redeeming properties will incorporate great struggle indeed. “Struggle” merely symbolizes that, although you desire guidance, you doubt what I teach and continue to learn from your preferences and you do prefer to be saved by the world rather than from the world.
Look closely at your preferences. To “prefer” is to make one choice above another, based on a value system you believe is your own. Yet, not one thought you reference to guide your conduct has ever been your own. Nevertheless, these are the thoughts you “prefer” to guide you.
Yet, It is your “preferences” that delivers you hell, simply because choices based on delusional thinking can only cause suffering. But, rather than look to the origin of your preferences, you merely compulsively repeat your choices in the expectation that only you can “decide” what is best. In so doing you have become your Source and if this is true, then your Source is lost to you. But never are you lost to your Source. Your Being was God’s preference and in that, no further consideration is required by YOU.
M: So you’re saying I should make no decisions based on preferences?
J: Decisions NOT based on Truth “decide” nothing whatsoever, since delusional thought can only create further and more complex delusion and this conforms to cause and effect. Decisions based on Truth are infallible and in fact, create Heaven and this too, conforms to cause and effect.
Your preferences give you the opposite of Heaven and this experience you often refer to as “hell.” In Truth, Heaven has no opposite, but in your mind, “hell” seems very real and thus, easily and effortlessly availed.
Your preference for hell takes many forms but, make no mistake, all experience is based on your preferences and nothing else. Make choices based on your preferences and observe how even the slightest impediment to what you “prefer” will subsequently thrust you into a hell of your own making. Such is your preference for hell.
M: How can I not prefer one thing over another? How can I live in the world and not have preferences?
J: By recognizing that you do not “live in the world,” but rather, the world lives IN you.
This simply means that any differentiation between “self” and “world” is entirely based on your preferences only. Preferences “include by exclusion” and all your relationships originate from this principle. In fact, your relationship with the world is built on preferences and what you do NOT prefer is excluded from a world you believe you live IN. But if the world lives in you, you have essentially cut away parts of yourself keeping what you prefer and discarding the rest.
M: But I still see parts that I do not prefer, so how could I have discarded them?
J: If the world is IN you, then nothing leaves your mind. How else would you give value to your preferences if not in contrast to what you discard?
I ask that you gather together these discarded remnants that fear has ripped asunder and fully participate in Creation. You so deeply long to be whole, yet you continue to fragment yourself through preferences. The constant toil of fragmentation is virtually intolerable to you and this makes you feel victim to the world. Yet, you continue to condemn the parts you do NOT prefer, but the parts have neither the the power to victimize nor the power to save that which relies on exclusion.
M: I would “prefer” not working for a living. How does that enter into your theory?
J: What would you prefer instead?
M: That money simply come to me with no effort on my part.
J: You may “wish” that this were true, yet you believe the opposite and this is what informs your preferences. Therefore, your preference to “work for a living” is clearly compatible with what you believe is true and certainly NOT what you “wish” were true. Wishing the “world” were somehow different than what you believe it IS does not negate what it is, because YOUR belief made it.
You have also considered writing these dialogues for a "living.” However, again this wish is incompatible with belief, since you do not attribute “value” to what you write. This is because you do not attribute value to what I teach and therefore, you continue to negate your “wish” simply through what you believe is “true.”
M: So I just need to change my beliefs to be compatible, without a doubt, to what I wish to occur?
J: This is all that need “occur” and I have NO doubt that it will. However, to perform this operation you would first need to believe “without a doubt” that I teach is Truth. This is all that is meant by “I am the way, and the truth, and the life; no one comes to the Father, but through Me.”
Your world attests to what you do believe, without a doubt, and what you “prefer” is always within the context of your belief in the “world.” What I teach is not aligned with that context in any way whatsoever. Yet, you MUST learn it nonetheless.
You are so deeply enmeshed within the context of your world, that for you to truly understand the magnitude of the work required would immerse you in the deepest sense of hopelessness, and you do sense the immensity of this task at times, but not fully.
This is why you cannot proceed through preferring what the world teaches, because the world teaches that you are alone. To go alone is NOT to go at all, for Truth does NOT recognize parts, but SEES only the whole. This is what YOU must SEE.
To prefer the whole above the parts is to prefer infinite freedom, and not simply that your body be allowed to move from place to place and make choices based on preferences that benefit no one. To exclude nothing is to join with everything in the realization that everything is YOU and this is blissfully preferable to being alone.