Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Down Your Dark Alleys

M: Why do I have so many difficulties with other people?

J: You seek out threat and what you seek, you find, because you placed it there TO be found. A fear induced vigilance consumes your mind, although you consider it a “normal” part of living. Yet, it was from fear that the ego was formed and made to seem “normal.”

M: I’m not aware of seeking for threats, although certainly one should avoid dark alleys.

J: The ego is a seemingly impenetrable system of defensive fortifications constructed entirely from fear. You need not be aware of the extent of this system, which is intricately complex, just the fear from which it was built. Without fear it cannot stand. Without fear, the world would not be as you now SEE it… a labyrinth of “dark alleys” from which it seems impossible to find your way home. This is what you find because this is what you expect to SEE, which demands the need to protect your ‘self’ from what SEEING makes REAL.

Surrender your fear and defenses dissolve and you will SEE that there was never anything “there” requiring protection. There are no “dark alleys” and there never were.

M: I admit that there are some people I may be cautious with, but I don’t fear those I love.

J: “Love” in your world is a contractual obligation that can be dissolved at anytime if the terms of sacrifice are not followed. This is cause for your greatest fear, because guilt is the chief weapon of attack. You believe in your wounds and so your vigilance is paramount to protect against future attack. These are the “dark alleys” that you fear. They exist nowhere but in your mind, because you made them up.

The Love of God requires NO sacrifice and demands NO guilt and if you could look beyond your defenses, you would SEE this as true. 

M: But I’m not aware that I’m being defensive.

J: You are not “aware” of oxygen, yet this does not interrupt your breathing. The ego does not require your awareness, just your denial. I am the answer to all denial in the search for Truth.

The egocentric mind is so tightly bound and constricted that the slightest reprimand or disparaging look, could easily plunge you into darkness. The world is blinded by guilt and this is what you SEE everywhere you LOOK. You have experienced this guilt with those you have chosen to “love” and, although the ego demands denial, your walls have been securely reinforced as a result. Yet, how can love be extended from behind walls? Clearly it cannot.
 
M: So how do I stop being defensive?

J: Simply believe that there is nothing to fear and, in that moment, it will be realized. You have NO freedom until you do, because it is only fear that keeps you in chains. The world you experience was made from fear and your brief moments of “happiness” only reinforce the fear which is always there before the “happy” event and must always come after. The ego’s fear is rigorously consistent, while your brief moments of pleasure are fleeting wisps of smoke disappearing on the horizon, never to be seen again. You have called on me to show you the way to a joy beyond measure and this I do completely without fear, since fear is unknown to me. Nevertheless, you have yet to come from behind the walls of fear that YOU made to protect from NOTHING. There is nothing there to harm you. Let down your defenses and be free.

M: I want to and I try to do the things you teach, but it just seems impossible. I keep screwing it up.

J: Success is guaranteed!

M: But when?

J: Not a moment more. Choose the moment.

M: So it’s up to me to end my fear?

J: You were not Created from fear, which means that there can be NO fear in you, other than what you demand. Demand it no longer, as it serves NO purpose.

M: I have no idea what it would be like to be totally without fear. To not worry, get angry or depressed occasionally. To be at peace in every moment. It seems impossible.

J: There is little I can say to relieve your doubt, other than to ask that you walk with me and I will take you to the place where no fear can be found, because your joy will give you no reason to LOOK for it. But you must give up ALL other maps, because nothing in the world can offer directions. The world is lost in fear and if you are “there,” you are lost with it. Yet, if only one SEES entirely without fear, all must SEE.

M: You say that I should “simply believe that there is nothing to fear and, in that moment, it will be “realized.” So I should no longer wear my seatbelts or look both ways before crossing the street?

J: There are NO exceptions to what God made REAL. However, in a world made from fear, exceptions are necessary. The mind that makes fear real, must protect the body from death, because fear also made the body. But if you are NOT a body, what is there to fear? If all “experience” is of the mind, how can fear rule the mind if it can be easily banished forever with just a thought of perfect peace? The body was made from fear and if fear is gone, so too must ALL its remnants vanish.

You live solely in the mind of God, whose thought gave you an eternal life that cannot be altered by ANYTHING you choose to think in denial of this FACT. Fear is the denial that changes NOTHING because it makes NOTHING. Your world was made to deny TRUTH.

Believe it no longer.

9 comments:

  1. Nice to so you two at it again :)

    Werner

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  2. Hey Werner,

    Yep, it never ends...

    Nice to know your still there...

    Thanks!
    mikeS

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  3. Dude... your writing is exploding. This was powerful.

    I am finding myself more and more anxious with people. Especially those I work with. I am constantly defending my "self". I must look a certain way or I'll lose my bonus. I must never sweat in front of people or I'll lose my reputation. I must never be wrong, or I will lose my job. If I lose my job, I might lose my house. If I lose my house, I might lose my friends. If I lose my friends, I might be rejected by my family. If I am rejected by my family, I may end up alone.

    Wow... and in the end, to allow that all to be true. To allow that to happen as part of the wonder of life. That is freedom. There is nothing more right or wrong in that result than its opposite.

    Yet still hold on to my fear. I would rather take drugs to tranquilize the sweat inducing fear and keep the mask than to allow whatever life wants to teach at each moment. My resistance is futile, and only damages the machine; the body.

    Yet damage it I continue to do. Why? Because it is all I know. And all I know is based on fear. All I am known to be in the realm, is based on fear. I know of no other way.

    Effing amazing. Now the part I cannot seem to get; how do I let go of fear. How does it simply switch in the moment.

    I fear I do not know. :)

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  4. "I am constantly defending my "self". I must look a certain way or I'll lose my bonus. I must never sweat in front of people or I'll lose my reputation. I must never be wrong, or I will lose my job. If I lose my job, I might lose my house. If I lose my house, I might lose my friends. If I lose my friends, I might be rejected by my family. If I am rejected by my family, I may end up alone."

    Yep, Michael, I know that well...been there, done that and still doin' it!

    "I would rather take drugs to tranquilize the sweat inducing fear and keep the mask than to allow whatever life wants to teach at each moment."

    Unfortunately, been there, done that too!

    "Now the part I cannot seem to get; how do I let go of fear. How does it simply switch in the moment."

    Not sure yet, but it has something to do with the fact that 'it doesn't matter,' since that keeps coming up for me and I keep resisting it with everything I think that matters.

    Maybe a future post...

    Thanks!
    mikeS

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  5. Right on!

    I have never met you, yet I feel as if you are having my experience. I would expect all are having these emotions manifested in different experience. Yet very few would ever admit it. A gigantic lie, yet so powerful it drives life's experience on Earth at the highest levels.

    So... how can I do or not do, care and not care, be and not be. I don't know. And maybe that is the answer. Maybe allowing that I don't know, and letting that be enough is the answer.

    Or maybe that there is no answer. Maybe the dropping of the question altogether. Yet that feels fake. hahhh.

    Appreciate the feedback!

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  6. I thought maybe to start an actual blog. Maybe out of fear and angst, maybe out a state of genuine confusion and annoyance.

    "You were not Created from fear"

    Suddenly, I wonder if that is true. What does not fear and tremble? Serenity is fleeting. A sudden and unfamiliar sound, and the animals and people scatter. Even the trees shake. I think we may do everything we do for a moment of no fear.

    Blessings~

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  7. Nahnni,

    "I think we may do everything we do for a moment of no fear."

    Yes, in fact, many would do just about anything. But, if we have the ability to engage a moment of no fear, that then may be highly indicative of our choice to engage in many continuous moments of fear.

    Either way, somewhere in consciousness, a choice is made...

    Thanks,
    mikeS

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  8. Only seeing these comments now, so sorry for being late to the party.

    Every night you let go of the fear.
    You happily let go of your story.

    Why not do that during the day?

    Life goes on without you worrying about it.
    I don't know, but "I" got a kick out of Advaita, or non-duality, so I'll say, who is it that has all these problems? Who is afraid?
    Is it you?
    Or is it just a story you made up?

    I woke up pissed at my wife this morning, and I had to wait for a while before I kissed her, because it took time to realize it wasn't really her who pissed me off in the last dream.

    Love,
    Werner

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  9. "I woke up pissed at my wife this morning, and I had to wait for a while before I kissed her, because it took time to realize it wasn't really her who pissed me off in the last dream."

    Ha!

    Smart move, Werner!

    Take care,
    mikeS

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